Showing posts with label sabbath day. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sabbath day. Show all posts

Sunday, November 18, 2012

ah


i feel pretty old today.  not in a bad way, just, i don't know, getting very attached to my habits and customs.



also, c. and i went to dinner at 4.45 p.m. on friday, almost missing the senior special.  and a matinee on saturday.




so, yeah, old.

and lately i'm finding all of my satisfaction in the little rituals of the day and the week--the sunday dinner with my family and friends, the end of day reading from gareth hinds' graphic novel of the odyssey with moses, my early, early morning pages, a little daily show, etc.  nothing exciting at all.  just



really

nice & comforting.

nothing wrong with that, right?




i don't have a lot of big ideas, either, just details recorded and confined in the little space of the poem i write every week.

&, like julie, i haven't processed what the year-long project of keeping a daily blog has meant, either.

things don't add up the way i thought they would.

it seems like my project now is to try to forget what i thought should happen and pay attention to what is actually happening.

it's surprisingly hard to do.

Sunday, September 30, 2012

september sunday

sunday shoes.

i love sundays.

i love getting dressed up for church.

i love the family meals, the sermons, the sunday playlist, the sunday times (even though it's become such a bougie rag), and best of all, the new episode of simpson's.

it's the last sunday in september, and here's a list:

1.  sermon:  sister b. tells the children that when she was a child she was full of fear.  "if you're full of fear, you can tell someone.  and you can learn to overcome your fear. you can learn, like i did, that 'perfect love casteth out fear.'" me, cecily and my mom were in a row on the pew, three gals who went through a lot of fear and anxiety.  we loved the message.  & brother j. told about fear, too.  the fear he was hearing in the daily farm reports on the radio due to this year's drought.  "until a couple of weeks ago," he said, when it turned out that the crops didn't fail, and there was "unexpected excess supply."  i will think about unexpected abundance this week.

sunday crepes
2. crepe bar with mom & dad and the family, inspired by our friends the olivier's who once, years ago, had us over for a crepe buffet:  "the americano" (pb & j), ham & cheese, etc.  our selection included salami, sharp cheddar & mustard, lemon & powdered sugar, and nutella.

new haircut

3. lula got a new, chic haircut.  my baby's growing up.

4.  simpson's--homer just said:  "if you need me, i'll be taking a popcorn bath.  it's something i read about in a men's health magazine in a dream." julie, it's set in nyc, and there's a scene on the highline.

5.  dinner with bam and the jasplund's--chicken on the grill with matt's magical dry rub.  i cut my finger on a mandoline while makng coleslaw.  then after dinner drive up the mountain to see the sunset and the lights of provo coming on.

Monday, September 24, 2012

devotional-ish

every sunday we listen to sacred music at home.  for years and years, we've been listening to bach cantatas every sunday.  he wrote more than 200 of them, and we have two sets of complete recordings.

so.

a lot of bach.

and i'm a really huge fan.

but recently, i've had to say no more cantatas.


anyway, sometimes we prevail on the master of the stereo to branch out into other musical traditions.  into sacred-y and devotionalish music for sundays.

(i mean, we're gonna watch simpson's after dinner anyway. which, for our family, is extremely sacred & devotional.)

in case you're interested, here's a list of stuff you can listen to of a sabbath, if you wanna hear music by people specifically playing for, about, to, around, god/dess/es.

1. steve reich, tehillim.

2. john coltrane, a love supreme. (happy birthday today!)

3. ijahman

4. golden gate quartet

5. beehive band

6. n. rajam

7. orlando di lasso

8. la monte's well-tuned piano

9. messiaen's les corps glorieux

10. hildegard

Sunday, September 9, 2012

to aunt bonnie


cecily assists aunt bonnie in blowing out her candles
tonight was aunt bonnie's birthday dinner:  pork tenderloin, purple slaw, cucumber, garden tomato & feta salad (thanks for the tomatoes, janell!) sour cream & chive mashed potatoes, rolls, corn & pies from grandma beth, peach crisp & homemade ice cream. it was almost like a little house on the prairie dinner.

but i digress. the important thing tonight is to tell you a few things about my amazing aunt:

1) she is one of the foxiest and most stylish women i know.

2) she started and ran her own business for thirty years, a beautiful flower shop and boutique that brought an extra dash of class to provo.  she did wedding flowers for redford, covey, & osmond(s).  she was named provo chamber of commerce business woman of the year in the early 2000's.  my first job was "working" for her, when she would let me make "corsages", etc.

3) she adopted a beautiful son from honduras when he was four, as a single mother, and raised him by herself.  upon his death, she started a foundation in his name in tegucigalpa to help honduran kids get an education.  recently, a young man she helped got language for the first time at age fifteen.  he was deaf, and had never been able to go to school to learn signing or reading.  because of my aunt, he now has massively increased communication.  as long as i can remember, she has been helping a lot of different people, friends and strangers alike.

4) she loves adventure:  hiking, traveling, being on the move.  she's pretty darn fearless.

5) she has been a great friend, helper and companion to me for my whole life.  and now to my children.  i'm very grateful to have her in my life and to get to live near her.  she is a great strength to our family and community.

Monday, August 27, 2012

sabbath day candles

favorites
our friends with green thumbs and excellent taste brought us a basket of beautiful herbs and peppers from their garden.  i'm grateful for people who can grow food.  that skill has eluded me.

the 44 oz. maverick cup in the background tells you everything you need to know about our family's commitment to juxtaposition.

so make me a deal:  when we're living in a post-apocolyptic world, you grow it & i'll cook it, okay?  i'm pretty good at cooking in weird circumstances and with skimpy ingredients, almost as good as i am at killing plants.
thanks heather and kevin!
all summer i've wanted to do a candlelit italian dinner outside, and today was finally the day.  ingrid is leaving for college tuesday morning, so this was our farewell dinner: portabello mushroom lasagna, spinach salad, glace carrots, homemade vanilla ice cream, peach crisp, lemonade.



the kids love these carrots
i wanted to make this mushroom lasagne, but this recipe was too pricey (i'll get to it later, right after i cash my macarthur check), so i downgraded to ina garten's recipe, which was still pretty delish. especially with a few sprigs of fresh thyme from that gorgeous herb bouquet added to the mushrooms and the bechamel.

farewell ingrid, august
the whole family was together tonight, plus a few of our favorite friends.  it was a blazing hot day today, but right before dinner, a thunderstorm rolled in and we got a gorgeous summer storm that brought things to the perfect temperature, plus made it dark enough for candles even though we ate at 7 & it was still light out.

i love you, alice waters.
one more thing:  peach crisp and homemade ice cream.  first of all, i only ever use alice water's crisp recipe.  it's undoubtedly the best one out there, and i've been using it for years.  second of all, you definitely want an ice cream maker.  i love the simplest vanilla with a reduced amount of sugar so the flavor of the cream is the center piece.  which is what you want with really good peaches.  nothing to distract from the beauty of that brief-lived summer ecstasy.

never use any other crisp topping.  it's all about the roasted almonds.
sitting in my back yard eating peaches and looking at the mountains after a rain storm. come visit me in august, and that's what we'll do.
homemade ice cream is a whole different subject.

(rum & maldon sea salt, as this blogger suggests, is so not necessary.  fun, i suppose, but i think it would just get in the way.  also, i double the topping recipe because i'm a topping whore.)
Nectarine and Blueberry Crisp
Adapted from the Chez Panisse Café Cookbook and Chez Panisse Fruit
½ cup almonds
1 cup all-purpose flour
3 tablespoons brown sugar
2 tablespoons granulated sugar
¼ teaspoon ground cinnamon
a pinch of salt
6 tablespoons unsalted butter
5 ripe nectarines, pitted and cut into 1 inch pieces
1 cup blueberries
¼ cup sugar
3 tablespoons unbleached flour
zest of one lemon, chopped fine
1 tablespoon aged rum
For the Topping
Preheat oven to 375 F. Toast the almonds until they smell nutty and are slightly more brown, about 7 or 8 minutes. Chop the almonds to a medium to fine consistency. Combine the flour, the sugars, the salt and spice in a mixing bowl. Add the chilled butter in pieces and mix with your fingers until it becomes mealy. Add the nuts and mix until the flour mixture holds together when squeezed. Put aside. (The topping can be prepared up to a week in advance and refrigerated).
For the Crisp
Mix the fruit in a medium-sized bowl and then add the sugar. Taste and adjust for sweetness. (*Note, don’t over sugar the fruit—there’s something quite beautiful about a semi-sweet crisp. Don’t be afraid to let the fruit express itself in its truest form.) Dust the flour over the mixture and stir gently. Spoon the topping into a small cooking dish is just big enough to hold the fruit. Mound a small amount in the center of the dish. Then, gently add the crisp mixture on top. Lightly push the crumble on top of the fruit mixture.
Place a cookie sheet on the middle rack of the oven (to catch any overflow juices) and put the crisp dish on top. Bake in the oven for 40 to 50 minutes, or until the top is lightly browned and the fruit juices are thickened and bubbling. The delicious smell of baked fruit will help you know when it’s close to being ready.
Serve with rum flavored whipped cream or vanilla ice cream. Finish the ice cream with a sprinkle of Maldon sea salt.

Sunday, August 12, 2012

plenty season

i dig ingrid's orange lipstick with the vintage '70's maxi my friend alice made & wore in the actual '70's.   it has tiny buttons all the way down the back and butterfly sleeves.
the produce is so abundant that i was hard-pressed to use it all before it languished.

baba ganoush, salad and lula's green goddess dressing.

there were aubergines, two big ones, so i made grilled eggplant and baba ganoush.

there were avocadoes about to die, so lula made a green goddess dressing to go with our salad of greens, peppers, cucumbers, and tomatoes.

taylor makes a beautiful plate
the requisite famous utah peaches and corn, which a person feels desperate to gorge on before they're gone.

utah peaches & corn are legendary
& a half-gallon of cream to be used (i've been making ice cream like crazy this week).

honey vanilla ice cream.  i have a crush on my new ice cream maker.
fingerling potatoes to be roasted.

adorable baby potatoes
salmon and steak on sale, but so many vegetarians.  we grilled it yesterday and served it cold with the salad, which was nice on such a hot day.

a crush on the grill, too.
i love sunday here, with all the dresses, the roses, the after-dinner bike ride to my favorite spot on locust lane, to an empty field where the buildings clear out and you can see the valley lighting to the west and the mountains to the east.

and a crush on sunday dinner.
it's the sweet spot of the world.  the navel of the world.

the sweet spot of dinner--grilled peaches & homemade ice cream.
today was the day i knew summer would wane.

how much longer?
today i felt like i dropped into the sweet spot of the season,

the sweet spot of summer.

& like it couldn't get any better.

Sunday, July 8, 2012

sabbath day, vintage necklace, good-bye festivities


good-bye, birthday week:  vintage birthday necklace with lucite crystals from my mom.  used to belong to grandma eva, who died in 1991.  any guess as to the vintage?  '80's? '60's?

good-bye birthday week, fire works, family reunion, wedding celebrations, cooking, brothers and sisters, eva and anna, messy kitchen, smokin' band, adorable babies, beautiful dresses.

it's coming to an end, and this restful sunday feels so quiet.

good-bye, jazz trio.  
here's a line from the hymn we sang in church today, a line that really speaks to me, in a hymn that's pretty funky, but kinda cool:

May we no more our pow’rs abuse,
But ways of truth and goodness choose;

it's from the hymn, "know this, that every soul is free."  the message of the hymn is that we are free to choose "what [we'll] be" because "god will force no man [soul? the title was changed to be gender inclusive, but not the hymn text] to heav'n."  

the idea of abusing power is really interesting in a text that is all about personal choice.  if each person chooses the way of truth and goodness, no more power will be abused.  simple, right?  this idea occurs a lot in yoga, that your personal sitting and meditation can spread peace and justice.  i love the chance to meditate on these ideas both in church, in yoga, and in poetry reading and writing. 



good-bye family reunion week.
here are some lines from poems in rabindranath tagore's gitanjali, a collection of devotional poems i was reading during church (a birthday gift from hilary and joe): 

i ask for a moment's indulgence to sit by thy side. the works that i have in hand i will finish afterwards.  . . . 

now it is time to sit quiet, face to face with thee, and to sing dedication of life in this silent and overflowing leisure.

at the end of a week of celebrations, it's time to sit quietly, to rejuvenate, to reflect, to think of ways to not abuse power, to display dedication to the good and true.  

good-bye, beautiful dresses.
most of my family has returned to their far-away homes.  workaday will return monday, after we've eaten a final supper tonight of wedding leftovers with my parents and baby sister and her family.  this ebb and flow of work and rest feels so good right now.  i love both the work and the rest today.  

another section from the tagore poem says:  away from the sight of thy face my heart knows no rest nor respite, and my work becomes an endless toil in a shoreless sea of toil.

good-bye, adorable toddlers.
this is why i love the day of rest-- to look on thy face, to sit quiet and face to face with. . . god. . . my mother. . . a stream. . . the pages of a book that look different on this day than on any other.  

looking forward: to returning to work tomorrow.

inspiration:  devotional texts, a day of rest

Sunday, June 24, 2012

vivid: a weekend

dining al fresco at tommy's burger: burgers & chili cheese fries
1. friday night:  dinner outside at tommy's burger.  i wore all red--dress, sandals, nail polish, purse & lipstick. i'm worried (excited!!!) i might look like some eccentric lady on advanced style.

2. watched miss representation.

3. slept in on saturday morning.

4. hiked stewart falls.

5.  dinner at my tied-for-first-place favorite utah valley restaurant pizzeria 712 (tied with communal).  ate braised short rib on grilled polenta with horseradish cream, ricotta gnocchi with lemon thyme cream sauce, fresh limeade, and a salad of la ney ferme greens, farro, cherry, and house made ricotta.  every single thing was simple and delicious.  i wanted to order the panne cotta with rhubarb compote, but was too full.

6.  church.

7. crepes with your choice of: lemon and sugar, nutella, or ham, cheese & dijon.

8. made dal, rice and raita.

9.  took it up south fork to eat at andi's cabin with peacocks and forest fire sky.

10.  saying good-bye to eva as she moves to a co-op in slc.  sounds super cool and i'm jealous, but sad.
you need to check in with tommy's burger every so often

Monday, June 11, 2012

laid flat by sunday dinner

lula's 14th b-day cake: chocolate with ganache, strawberries, whipped cream, & strawberry coulis

 i have a love/hate relationship with sunday dinner.  i love having a whole day to cook grand dishes, i love being with the whole family, plus extensions and friends, i love the opportunity to try new recipes, techniques, and ingredients & to make the table extra pretty.  i hate the stress, the two days of shopping and prep, & how exhausted i am by the end.  i also hate how, every freakin' time, i plan to make it more simple and less stressful and yet i always end up doing the opposite.

oh yeah, and how crabby i get.

so i vow i'm gonna stop,  but then i do it again, or my kids ask me if we can have people over and get all sad when it's just us and we're just having grilled cheese or something.

& i give in & give up.

once again.

hoping that, in the end, it's a worthy endeavor to go all crazy for our sabbath dinner. (cause that's probably what i'm gonna do anyway.)

the menu, on the fridge.  note the backwards "z" on zucchini

rose petals for lula

grilled artichokes with aioli

Sunday, April 22, 2012

sabbath schooling

 
to continue the burlesque show of GITP (legs! legs! legs!), here are my legs walking themselves to church
 we were schooled on this radically beautiful text today in an excellent and strong sermon:

love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you.

this seems so hard to do.

i think, though, that it is one of those challenging postures that, once you achieve it, if only for a moment, you'll realize is the easiest thing in the world.

that continuously practicing and falling will take you to a point, finally, where, without effort, you are suddenly filled with love, hate falls away, and, i imagine, you are filled with the most expansively beautiful liberation a person could ever experience.


what is the practice that gets us to this place?

i want to hear your methods and inspirations, and would love some more sunday school in my life from diverse persons and readers.

the tulips, who lead such wildly brilliant and brief lives, are up

 i'm committing to a week full of vegetables.

what's on your menu this week?

le petit déjeuner, chez moi
legwear: bare, in honor of 83 degrees

inspiration: sermon on the mount

looking forward: to monday's guest blogger

Monday, April 16, 2012

sunday ten: an unsacred sabbath

my baby sister takin' me for a post-swim bike ride.  change is constant.


1.  pediatric after hours clinic
2.  antibiotics at walgreen's
3.  burgers and limeade at sonic
4.  a couple hours of grading interspersed with
5.  the sunday new york times
6.  tin tin with the kids
7.  kate's homemade bread and angel food cake
8.  chicken marbella dinner
9.  hours of conversation with family & old friends
10.  mad men with marni (!) ((who drove down from seattle on a whim yesterday))

yes, julie, the posts keep coming, fast & furious, forcing me to stay awake more than usual.

legwear: bare, espite the april chill

inspiration:  the constancy of change

looking forward: to yoga tomorrow

Sunday, February 5, 2012

tell what you know: don't sing, sang



(this clip is super tight.)


yesterday i heard an interview with ruthie foster about her recent collaboration with the blind boys of alabama.  she talked about how when you sing with the blind boys, "you don't sing, you sang."  she talked about her experience singing in the church and how it was her main event--it's your chance, she said, "to tell what you know."





(watch this whole long video.  it's such a beautiful embodiment of community, of walking together with each other & the spirit.)


today is my favorite church day of the month.  first sunday (or "sundee" as the elders around here pronounce it), fast sunday, testimony day, the day to tell what you know.  our church discourages clapping, singing, speaking in tongues, dancing, and all the fun stuff that some people get to do at their churches (i earnestly pray that this will change some day). so going where the spirit takes you is, well, it can't take you to far out of the bounds of an amen at the end of (never during) a sermon.

so fast sunday is the day to break out a little, to hear from those who might go a little too far out of bounds.  but it's their chance to tell what they know, and there's nothing i enjoy more than this in my worship services.  (i admit i like it best when someone is willing to say something "inappropriate."  maybe something that we all think, but we don't wanna say?)

today a brother told how he felt more confident when he sang between two congregants who are also professional musicians, how he suddenly became a better singer than he actually was.  a sister told the stories of the people she shared a surgical waiting room with as she waited for her own mother to emerge from surgery in taiwan.  a teen told how her volunteer work at the deaf school always made her day a better one, and three other teens testified that they felt god's love, and knew they were not alone with the scary feelings they were having about their futures.

these are the stories that my brothers and sisters don't tell me in every day life, so i love a day set aside for telling and hearing--for the reminder that, in a congregation, you're not alone.  someone is there to hear what you say.

& i am by nature a doubting person, a timid person, so testifying from the pulpit is not really something i can do.  but at least i can witness it.

and what i know today is that the telling and hearing of stories, the witnessing of each other's stories, is without a doubt, one of the best ways to observe your sabbath.  however, whenever, and with whomever you choose to do it.

if you feel inspired, tell what you know today.

inspiration:  telling and hearing, together

looking forward:  sunday dinner at bam's

tights:  boring charcoal, but i did see at church:  windowpane, horizontal striped, floral, tie-dyed, & white eyelet.

Sunday, January 29, 2012

keeping sabbath



when i was a child growing up in a mesa, arizona orange grove that was, lot by lot, being bulldozed and replaced with 70's ranch-style ramblers with desert landscaping in front and a few citrus trees remaining in back, around kidney shaped pools, the sabbath day was both arduous and wonderful.  sometimes boring, sometimes peaceful,

& almost always brimming with delicious and only-on-sunday foods. *

we had three separate church meetings on sunday, and i remember my mother in a slip, nude hose with a reinforced toe & bone-colored high-heeled sandals, browning a spattering roast with a big fork while the exhaust fan hummed away and handel's water music (we listened to this every sunday without fail) accompanied her on my dad's reel-to-reel.  or perhaps she was putting her famous tender rolls--both crescent and clover-shaped--into the oven.  this was either before sunday school or in between sunday school and sacrament meeting.  my dad had already attended early morning preisthood, leaving my mother alone, as mothers usually were back then, to dress, feed, groom and transport seven children to church in our station wagon.

in actuality, the grooming started the day before.  all kids who grow up mormon know the drill from this primary song:

saturday is a special day/it's the day we get ready for sunday./ we clean the house and we shop at the store/ so we won't have to work until monday.

we brush our clothes and we shine our shoes/ and we call it our get the work done day./ then we trim our nails and shampoo our hair/ so we can be ready for sunday.

at our house, with five girls, this involved saturday night shampoos and a lot of pink sponge rollers.  my sisters and i all have fine straight hair, and my mother was a little impatient, so our curls were often bedraggled by the time sunday school was over, and there was always a stray piece of straight hair that had escaped the the curlers.  not like sister nancy m's girls (she had fourteen children) who wore impeccably hand-made matching dresses and pinafores and had ringlets that reached at least to the mid-back.

in fairness to my mother's hair skills, sister nancy m's girls had thick curly hair, so she could make ringlets with only a spray bottle and a finger, and they would last all day.

(let me also mention here sister delores w., the chorister, who had countless hair pieces and false lashes, who wore as much make-up as dolly parton and put just as much effort into her styling, who had a similar platinum-blonde shade of hair as dolly, who never wore the same maxi-dress twice, and whose style i vowed to emulate when i grew up.  she had ten children and drove a custom painted yellow van with checkers on the side and a sign reading: "the w. family taxi service".)

(btw, in our densely mormon neighborhood, i felt that seven children was a very average, perhaps even small & kind of wimpy, number of children for a good lds family to have.)

the sabbath ended, back in the day, with toasted cheese sandwiches (open face with tomato, mayo, s & p) campbell's tomato soup, and hot chocolate while watching wild kingdom and wonderful world of disney.  in slips or pajamas.

a little boring and a little fun, and eminently soothing.

this all came to mind today as i've been preparing sunday dinner.  normally we are lucky enough to go to bam's house for dinner, at least in the winter (she summers in canada), but today i wanted to give her a day off and cook dinner for grandma beth and grandpa woody, who we normally don't see on sundays.

(btw, grandpa woody paid me high compliment last week at the golden corral when he said, "why, their food is almost as good as your cooking.)

i went with an old school menu:  turkey with stuffing*mashed potatoes and gravy* garlic seared green beans* waldorf salad* dinner rolls with rosemary and kosher salt*cranberry orange relish.  

i cooked in heels and these rad zig-zaggy lacy tights (charcoal and bone) that c. picked up at the ann arbor urban outfitters in december of '10.

& i thought about our slightly different way of keeping sabbath now.

& i wondered about how & when  & if you do it.

here's ours:

*church
*bach cantatas--we own all of them.  all.  guess how many he wrote.  that's right.  more than 300.  and they all sound the same. &we've been listening to a new one every week.  though of course i can't tell that it's a new one, because it sounds as same as the old one.
*grilled cheese sandwiches after church
*ny times:  i read modern love, all the food stuff, street style, what i wore, diagnosis, and i hope and pray that bill cunningham has a new slideshow up (he does today, and his narration is particularly rad, especially his comments about women choosing their looks)
*sunday dinner at bam's
*simpson's
*playing cards or the favorites game (this is a rad game.  i'll explain some other time).

inspiration: sunday rituals & tradition old and new & the mozart missa solemnis

looking forward: to making this french onion soup and this giardiniera

legwear:  urban outfitters charcoal and bone lace tights

*don't forget to read this article on mormon cookery.