|allison janney, the only celeb i really cared about. photo by lorri vodi rupard.|
& i'm feeling a bit blue.
& i missed you.
i had many thoughts, feelings (or "feeleens" as it's pronounced in utah), and epiphanies. but i've grown wary of my epiphanies. because when the epiphanic moment wears off, it's a huge, huge bummer, and i feel like a fool for having believed it.
i think i'll share any way. because really, dear readers, sometimes i can't distinguish between true inspiration, too much caffeine, or my daily bipolaresque roller coaster ride of emotions. maybe you can help me sort it out. maybe writing it here, for the little portion of the world that visits me in cyberspace to examine, will help me know when to
as kenny rogers so eloquently put it:
know when to hold 'em
know when to fold 'em
know when to walk away
& know when to run.
so here are the Most Important thoughts and feelings i had as a result of attending sundance:
1) writers need to learn how to create characters, need to do better at fleshing out rather than creating types or making corrective statements to the world with their so-called characters. also, the absence of smiling or happiness does not = profundity.
2) filmmakers need better writers. i saw really superb acting, cinematography and even better editing skillz in practice, but without a good writer, you're screwed.
3) (here's the part you need to help me with--am i just totally delusional and manic right now?) 10 films in 20 years. i have a plan. woody allenesque. come up with a modest budget that i can sustain and fund every two years, a style of filmmaking that looks great even without $$$, and a guerilla film company that is locavore in nature, but maxivore in impact.
4) filmmaking for social change. something different from redford's approach, not that his isn't great and super important, but a new angle on it. something to do with open source, something to do with positive and real work by women.
5) will the high adrenaline, complex multi-tasking and hat wearing, and mix of visual, aural, language, and action of film making, if i am lucky and smart enough to do it, be enough to keep me happy for 20 years?