This is what I
wear pretty much every day. I like the kissing buttons on these knee socks.
Kissing buttons are buttons that are just there for show.
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I’m a writer and fellow BYU alum of the “Clad Clan” girls. I’ve lived in Seattle for the past 12 years, but last year I moved to the woods of Orcas Island, in the San Juan Islands of Washington State. I write about wine for Seattle Magazine, but I also have a couple of books: Corset a book of poems,
and a food book, Chefs on the Farm: Recipes and Inspiration from the Quillisascut School of the Domestic Arts. RIght now I’m also working on a blog, 26kitchens.wordpress.com, about all the kitchens I’ve lived in. I also work at a great little resort restaurant, Doe Bay CafĂ©. What do you want to do this year? And, are you in a tight place, and if so, what are you doing about it?
This year, I want to start a company - Orcas Farm Tours - taking people (a lot of tourists here in the summer) around to meet their farmers, oyster ranchers, and duck egg producers, (i.e, ducks). I’m pretty scared about it - not the tour part, i’m good with people, but the business part. That would be my tight place, currently, and I’m actually writing about it, but the piece I sent for you all recalls a tight place I was in last year, when I first moved here and lived in a 16-foot trailer for nine months.
What inspires you?
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I’ve known many women who find solace in their kitchens. In the
wake of a broken heart, a lost mother, a wayward child. A kitchen, like a nest,
is a place of transformation, where a union of heart and head becomes an egg,
becomes a waiting, becomes a bird, becomes a fledgling. Innately, we know this.
And so we retreat there to wait out the golden gestation of pain into
forgetting, idea into action.
This past summer, I changed my town, my job and my house, and
lived for nine months in, literally, a tight spot. My home was a 1961 Shasta
trailer - one of several employee housing options at Doe Bay Resort and
Retreat. I had just taken a new job as front-of-house manager for the Doe Bay
Cafe, on Orcas
Island, moving from Seattle where I’d lived for 12 years, been married, owned a
house and developed a close-knit community.
All that sounds like a story waiting to be told, but what really
kept my attention and distracted me from all the real life drama in my life was
my real life tiny kitchen. Less than 36 inches in diameter, my kitchen had most
everything: a 3 burner propane stove, an oven, a sink with cold and cold
running water, two cabinets, a countertop, a few drawers, and an icebox. That
you had to fill with real ice.
The trailer sat in the woods up behind the resort, a gorgeous
waterfront collection of old cabins, an organic garden, a top-notch
seafood/vegetarian restaurant, a dry sauna and hot tubs in a wooden shelter
perched on the bank of a pristine stream. A place of healing.
When I first saw it, the trailer was a dirty shell (no bathroom,
of course, that was a 50-yard walk) with torn upholstery. Over the course of a
weekend, I cleaned it up, literally, with a toothpick, poking the blown in dirt
that had accumulated in the window sills since 1961. I took the benches on a
trip with me back to Seattle, found suitable fabric, and broke them down and
reupholstered them. I got some old red velvet curtains at a garage sale to
separate the “room,” and culled down my possessions until everything I needed
fit into my little Scion, Xena the Warrior Princess. I wanted to think of the few years after my divorce,
foundering professionally, financially, emotionally, as a learning experience,
and this as a new start.
In this new place, I was overwhelmed by my new job, old wounds,
new changes. But I was trying to find balance. I was taking yoga classes for
the first time, writing more, trying to be kind to myself.
They say a good kitchen is in balance, too. That as a cook, you
should stand in the middle of a triangle -
close enough to reach the stove, fridge and sink without moving too far. Well
in this kitchen, I had to merely move two inches in any direction to shift my
perspective, to reach a knife, to stir a pot. It was very comforting to know I
was at the center of my own triangle, able to keep sauce seasoned and flames in
check.
And the miniscule kitchen saved my soul. I carried in only what I
felt as truly essential. One cast
iron skillet, one pot, one chopping block, one butcher knife, one big bowl, one
small, two plates, two forks, two spoons, one wooden spoon, one measuring cup,
two coffee cups, two glasses. You get the drift. Each item represented how
little I actually needed to survive, and each item felt important. I pondered
which spoon to choose, which cup. I decided to bring my best and brightest. The
good big wine glasses, my grandmother’s forks.
It all seemed to me that my mind was trying to distract me from
concerns of financial instability, of professional ambition and emotional
fears. My monkey mind made the kitchen into a bit of an obsession. What would
my first meal be? How would I keep cream from spoiling? I realize now that our
minds - complex theatres complete with foyer, scrim and green room, are always
trying to keep the show going on, no matter what romantic distress the ingenue
is feeling, or how many of the chorus’ checks bounced at the grocery store.
I’ve come to trust my mind, that it will always try to take care of me. And
those first months in a new place, on a new island with a new job, my mind
wanted me to create a tiny kitchen where I could feel at home. A dollhouse
version of my former life, miniature and perfect.
The night I made my first meal in the Green Flash - the name I
gave my trailer for its green and silver lightning bolt on the side; also, the
name for that moment the sun goes below the horizon; if you see it, you’ll have
good luck - the woods above the
bay were wild with wind and rain. March wind came off the water
and up into the forest, and the hundred-foot-tall pines swayed and creaked as
if they would give way and crush every little cabin in the way.
But somehow I felt safe. My meal took all evening to prepare; I
took it slowly. I lit candles for myself, read my recipe twice, even though I knew
it was simple. Fresh linguine carbonara with island bacon and duck eggs from
just down the road. I drank wine, but not too much. Grated salty
Parmigiano-Reggiano, cubed the sweet-smoky bacon, cooking it - just enough - into the hot pasta. Grated lemon
peel. Chopped parsley. Cracked one golden duck egg, mixing it all together.
Tasting along the way to find balance.
P. S. Not sure how to work this in, except to say there are a lot of cool people at Doe Bay, and a lot of cool legwear, being a coldish clime and all. My friend Luca let me take a pic of the tights she wore to work on Saturday.
Awesome, Julie! It looks great! I'll post it...everywhere! Thanks for letting me do this...I enjoyed my first guest blogging adventure!
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shannon
shannon, this is glorious! i'm so fascinated by living in a tiny space, and this was a great slice of that life. also, i'll always remember doe bay as the place where ingrid saw her first nudists. i need to ask her if she remembers it. but she was quite intrigued. thank you for blogging for us. what a treat.
DeleteShannon, I loved this. I wanted to be in that trailer with you, but I fear there would have been no room. Did you ever have a guest for dinner? It's been eons since I've read you. Why did I wait so long?
ReplyDeleteThat sounds incredibly appealing right now, especially because I'm currently watching a 1950's melodrama about a lady choosing between her country club and the simple life.
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