Wednesday, February 15, 2012
keep it on the mat
that your days have themes
i hope is different from living your day with a theme in mind
might make you live according to blog format
could be limiting
could keep you from more inspired
today's theme was
precipitated by what my yogi said in her blog post yesterday
of taking it day by day to get through hard times
i had a conversation with a friend who's daughter is chronically ill. she told me that "today was bad." implying that tomorrow might be good. i noticed she has been able to keep herself from thinking too far into the freak out future with a day by day approach.
i've been working on a big project and, though i usually get all caught up in worrying about the ending of things, i've somehow been able to keep my mind on the present by not letting myself think further than the current month, though my project is a two year endeavor.
i told an attentionally challenged student today to write down two things he needs to do on a post-it and stick it on his shirt and to do nothing but those two things until they're crossed off his micro list. then he can get another post-it and do it again.
&, in yoga today, i finally found a way around this frustrating shoulder injury that's been a problem for six months by not allowing myself to think about later, when my shoulder's better, but to focus on enjoying practicing in a different way than i used to. i realized today that i can have a great practice even with a limited shoulder, even if my shoulder never comes back.
there's a thing that yogis say a lot: stay on your mat. meaning, don't look at that super amazing yogi in front of you or that really unimpressive yogi next to you
& don't think about how you practiced yesterday
or how you will practice tomorrow.
look at the tip of your nose, or your navel, or your toes.
that's where it's really at.
i kind of hate writing this stuff.
the "be present" mantra has become tired, and embarrassingly smacks of white middle class privilege.
and some of these epiphanies can only be experienced, not talked about
the idea that
the priviliged have become ill, gorged on ease and convenience
we are sick from too much time to fret about our own well-being
and grasping for the things we desire
and our own successes
only breed the desire for more successes
i don't have really good words to talk about this right now.
i only know that today was good. implying that
tomorrow might be bad
or good again
& good & bad & good
& definitely never
what i thought it would be
i'll try not to think what might or could be